Trying the normal way...

Okay, so I never thought I would hear my RE say this.

After the HPT disaster, I was on the Progesterone pills, and finally got my AF also. I went to my RE for the regular 2nd day follow up and the first thing he tells me is that my Endo is too thick. Admittedly I did not have any bleeding, but was having immense tissue discharge, naturally I assumed it is the AF. But he still made me do a BHCG to confirm if there is no Ectopic pregnancy.

Somehow I was pretty sure this time that it cannot be anything other than negative and it was, thank god! By the time the results came, my bleeding also was in full flow. Then he told me that since this is the immediate cycle after my Laproscopic we can try naturally!

He said we could see if ovulation can occur naturally this time.

So, here I am...

We are waiting to see what happens this time.

I purchased 2 Ovulation kits to see if I do ovulate. Ovulation kits are not that useful for PCOS women, since you never know when or even if ovulation will occur at all. So, I got 2, just to keep on checking it.

So...let's see...keeping my fingers cross!

That lone line...

In the world of IF, HPTs is yet another sad area. To take it and see that single, lonely line in your Pregnancy Test is nothing but a route towards heart ache and pain.

And today, I had to go through it.

Okay, I will admit it: I was being over-enthusiastic, way too much hopeful in thinking that just because for the first time in this world of IF, after taking Progesterone I didn't get my AF for about 12 days I might be pregnant. I mean, what was I thinking?!

But really, I undergo Ovarian drilling, have some bleeding after it and then nothing...nada...zero...absolutely no periods whatsoever, its been 38 days. I started to imagine too much...every little movement in my lower body, I could feel it.

I was shit scared of taking UPT. Me and UPTs don't get along. They are totally not for me! No!

So, after 7 days of deliberating (I usually get my AF on 5th day after Progesterone tablets), and reading too much into normal everyday happenings in my body, I decided to brave my RE to day. So, went there and what does he ask me first: Did you take a UPT?

Then I had to take it! And of course it was negative, I mean, I underwent IUI twice with "perfect conditions" and still couldn't conceive, how I convinced myself that I could have become pregnant naturally is beyond me!

Life with IF is way too much to handle, there is this infinite hope that always leaves you hanging with "what-ifs" and there is always reality to bite your ass and wake you up!

Sigh...

So, here I am loaded with 10 Meprate tablets in my list to get my AF and then of course, there is always the next IUI to go through!

AF...where are you?

AF is always cruel...when you don't want it to come after your IUI, it would...when you want it to come after your Laproscopic Ovarian drilling, it doesn't! Really!



After taking Duphaston for about 10 days and not getting my AF in 5 days, I was prematurely overjoyed thinking that this might be it! But that is not to be. Apparently, your AF can be delayed after Ovarian drilling since your Ovary might be recuperating. Found this, after consulting Dr.Google way too much as usual...

Now I have to wait for the AF and then go to my RE, start all over again with my IUI...sigh...

Sometimes, I think we should have a hotline installed directly to a Doctor who would keep answering my insanely inane doubts and questions!